im break up, before i've got the chance to couple

Hye blog, last night mia mimpi A, the dream was our family went to a holiday, it was really enjoy, i've got the chance to meet him, even in my dream, jadi apa point mimpi mia? mia pon tak tahu, hanya Allah je yg tahu apa yg trsirat dsebalik mimpi tu. Mia just hope that one day mia got the chance to be with A, as close as we can, but dream is just dream, the dream is impossible to be reality, believe me. After yesterday conversation, mia decide tanak tgr A lagi, biarlah dia jalani hidup dia sndiri, mia takkan kacau, and if he would talk to me, mia akan lyn mcm biasa, salah siapa jugak kan, salah mia, so trpksa tggung, jgn mengeluh. Deep inside me, mia rasa mcm nak nangis sgt sgt, but air mata tak boleh keluar, tak tahu mcm mana, hati rasa mcm di koyak koyak, tapi mia ttp tak nangis, maybe i've been through this pain all my life, tu yg mia jadi kuat, jadi prmpuan yg susah nak menitiskan air mata, siapa tahu? prmpuan yg funny ni seorg yg sensitif, byk pnderitaan yg dtggung tapi dia trpksa kuat demi org lain, siapa tahu? takda siapa pon yg tahu kecuali Allah, tuhan yg Maha Esa. Last night, after maghrib, mia baca yassin, it's specially for my uncle, granma, grandfather, and for all the muslims, mia jugak baca Al-Quran, to calm myself and utk tmbh amal di hari kemudian, Mia jugak brdoa utk A, semoga suatu hari nnti dia dpt terima mia and mia syg sgt kat dia, mia still lagi brharap suatu hari nnti dia pon syg mia, Ya Allah, kuatkan hatiku, lindungi hambamu ini dari melakukan prkara yg dilrg Ya Allah, sesungguhnya kau maha mengetahui, amin~~