good VS evil

Dear blog, last night, mia betul betul emosional, i don't know, after had an argument with my syster, i went to my room and started to cried. Mia nangis bukan sebab mia benci my syster, i just don't know, i'm to emosional after saw a couple. Actually, cerita dia mcm ni, smlm mia, B, F, M and K pergi sunway, kitrg skating :D meanwhile, masa mia skating, mia ada nmpk sorg mamat ni, dia handsome, awesome gila i think his age was about 16 or 18 smtg. But he's already has a girlfriend - i think so, because diorg rapat je - but diorg tak pgg tgn pon, diorg just mesra borak, mia pon tak sure diorg couple or not. But mia seriously suka kat lelaki tu, and when i saw the guy, i remebered A, that man was really just like A, he's nice just like A, he's funny just like A, he's handsome just like A and he's really put on work utk skating just like A too :') seriously, all day long mia rasa mia mcm tgk A. But that man has already had girlfriend, just like A :/



Back to the top, mia menangis because, i just think that myself is not worth to anybody. I don't know, mia rasa yang, knp mia tak pentingkn diri ? kenapa mia tak jahat ? kenapa mia suka jaga perasaan org ? and people always say ' buat jahat dibalas baik ' tapi, buat baik dibalas jahat? mcm tu? mia rasa mia patut jadi jht drpd jadi baik sbb there is no one who cares about me, apa yg mia buat, mesti akan di balas jahat, mungkin mia mmg tak cukup baik utk terima kebaikan, because no one would notice if i was doing smtg good for them, or maybe ini semua balasan utk mia atas kslhn yg mia buat dulu, mungkin :')